random rants and ramblings

are you that type of person who hates yourself?

i'm like that sometimes... and i haven't really thought about why...

hmmm...

maybe it's because i know that I really do know the right thing to do but still choose to do other-wise... because it's the more "human" thing to do... hmmm

sometimes, i miss the inhumane self i had some years back...

i didn't feel so much hate... then again... i really didn't feel anything... that was way before the IshiYoshi love-faith thing i have going on now... hmmm...

do you think it's better to get hurt like that?

i'm slow in getting a real move on but i'm working on it...

my thesis defense is this afternoon... wish me luck!