random rants and ramblings

i forgot to mention this here but last saturday, my rabu-rabu went over to my school and we spent some time there watching H!M skits. I've downloaded so much that my computer is at the brink of crashing... LOL

anyway... I didn't expect her to be amused at all... sometimes she gets jealous of how much i talk about H!P and IshiYoshi... but while we were watching, in a weird way, i was happy that she was laughing so hard that we actually were drawing attention from other people... not that i want us to be noticed or anything... i was just glad that she was genuinely amused/ entertained by H!P...

i was asking her to do a collab fic with me... or at least a chapter for RFP ... i don't know why... maybe i just feel like she has to be a part of things that really matter to me... btwfyi, fic writing means a lot to me...

... have i mentioned here why i actually started writing that damned fic? LOL

... about two weeks before i started writing, my family (parents and sister and me), we got into this car accident... our SUV flipped over on the highway... no one was severely injured, but my mom just had a surgery a month earlier so we had her brought to the hospital to have her checked if the accident affected her heart in anyway... apparently it did... so she had to spend time at the hospital... i spent a lot of time at the hospital then... the little time i had home, i spent on the forums and IshiYoshi...

the fic idea had been on my mind for quite a while but i never thought i'd write it... but while i was at the hospital, i got bored... so one time i brought a notebook with me and wrote down the outline of what would have been runaway from the past...

after consulting here and there with the who-knows-what... RFP came to be... da-dan!

so there... i guess that's why the hospital has been an integral thing in that fic... hmmm...

... so yeah... i guess the fic was a sort of coping thing for me... the whole accident thing was pretty crazy... many people said that we were very lucky... if even just one factor in that scene changed (e.i weather conditions, speed of the cars behind us, etc) , we would've been done for.

it's weird... the moment our car flipped over, i was listening to "Be All Right"...